The Madman
His Parables
and Poems
By Kahlil Gibran
You ask me how I became a madman. It happened thus: One day, long before many gods were born, I
woke from a deep sleep and found all my masks were stolen, the seven masks I
have fashioned an worn in seven lives, I ran maskless through the crowded
streets shouting, "Thieves, thieves, the cursed thieves."
Men and women laughed at me and some ran to their houses in
fear of me. And when I reached the market place, a youth standing on a
house-top cried, "He is a
madman." I looked up to behold him;
the sun kissed my own naked face for the first time. For the first time the sun
kissed my own naked face and my soul was inflamed with love for the sun, and I
wanted my masks no more. And as if in a trance I cried, "Blessed, blessed
are the thieves who stole my masks." Thus I became a madman. And I have
found both freedom of loneliness and the safety from being understood, for
those who understand us enslave something in us. But let me not be too proud of
my safety. Even a Thief in a jail is safe from another thief.
God
In the ancient days, when the first quiver of speech came to
my lips, I ascended the holy mountain and spoke unto God, saying, "Master,
I am thy slave. Thy hidden will is my law and I shall obey thee for ever
more."But God made no answer, and like a mighty tempest passed away. And
after a thousand years I ascended the holy mountain and again spoke unto God,
saying, "Creator, I am thy creation. Out of clay hast thou fashioned me
and to thee I owe mine all."
And God made no answer, but like a thousand swift wings
passed away. And after a thousand years I climbed the holy mountain and spoke
unto God again, saying, "Father, I am thy son. In pity and love thou hast
given me birth, and through love and worship I shall inherit thy kingdom."
And God made no answer, and like the mist that veils the distant hills he
passed away. And after a thousand years I climbed the sacred mountain and gain
spoke unto God, saying, "My God, my aim and my fulfillment; I am thy
yesterday and thou are my tomorrow. I am thy root in the earth and thou art my
flower in the sky, and together we grow before the face of the sun." Then
God leaned over me, and in my ears whispered words of sweetness, and even as
the sea that enfoldeth a brook that runneth down to her, he enfolded me. And
when I descended to the valleys and the plains God was there also.
My Friend
My friend, I am not what I seem. Seeming is but a garment I
wear a care woven garment that protects me from thy questionings and thee from
my negligence. The "I" in me, my friend, dwells in the house of
silence, and therein it shall remain for ever more, unperceived,
unapproachable. I would not have thee believe in what I say nor trust in what I
do for my words are naught but thy own thoughts in sound and my deeds thy own
hopes in action. When thou sayest, "The wind bloweth eastward," I
say, "Aye it doth blow eastward"; for I would not have thee know that
my mind doth not dwell upon the wind but upon the sea. Thou canst not understand
my seafaring thoughts, nor would I have thee understand. I would be at sea
alone. When it is day with thee, my friend, it is night with me; yet even then
I speak of the noontide that dances upon the hills and of the purple shadow
that steals its way across the valley; for thou canst not hear the songs of my
darkness nor see my wings beating against the stars and I fain would not have
thee hear or see. I would be with night alone. When thou ascendest to thy
Heaven I descend to my Hell even then thou callest to me across the unbridgeable
gulf, "My companion, my comrade," and I call back to thee, "My
comrade, my companion" for I would not have thee see my Hell. The flame
would burn thy eyesight and the smoke would crowd thy nostrils. And I love my
Hell too well to have thee visit it. I would be in Hell alone. Thou lovest
Truth and Beauty and Righteousness; and I for thy sake say it is well and
seemly to love these things. But in my heart I laught at thy love. Yet I would
not have thee see my laughter. I would laugh alone. My friend, thou art good
and cautious and wise; nay, thou art perfect and I, too, speak with thee wisely
and cautiously. And yet I am mad. But I mask my madness. I would be mad alone. My
friend, thou art not my friend, but how shall I make thee understand? My path
is not thy path, yet together we walk, hand in hand.
The Scarecrow
Once I said to a scarecrow, "You must be tired of
standing in this lonely field." And he said, "The joy of scaring is a
deep and lasting one, and I never tire of it." Said I, after a minute of
thought, "It is true; for I too have known that joy." Said he,
"Only those who are stuffed with straw can know it." Then I left him,
not knowing whether he had complimented or belittled me. A year passed, during
which the scarecrow turned philosopher. And when I passed by him again I saw
two crows building a nest under his hat.
The Sleep-Walkers
In the town where I was born lived a woman and her daughter,
who walked in their sleep. One night, while silence enfolded the world, the
woman and her daughter, walking, yet asleep, met in their mist-veiled garden. And
the mother spoke, and she said: "At last, at last, my enemy! You by whom
my youth was destroyed who have built up
your life upon the ruins of mine! Would I could kill you!" And the
daughter spoke, and she said: "O hateful woman, selfish and old! Who stand
between my freer self and me! Who would have my life an echo of your own faded
life! Would you were dead!" At that moment a cock crew, and both women
awoke. The mother said gently, "Is that you, darling?" And the
daughter answered gently, "Yes, dear."
The Wise Dog
One day there passed by a company of cats a wise dog. And as
he came near and saw that they were very intent and heeded him not, he stopped.
Then there arose in the midst of the company a large, grave cat and looked upon
them and said, "Brethren, pray ye; and when ye have prayed again and yet
again, nothing doubting, verily then it shall rain mice." And when the dog
heard this he laughed in his heart and turned from them saying, "O blind
and foolish cats, has it not been written and have I not known and my fathers
before me, that that which raineth for prayer and faith and supplication is not
mice but bones."
The Two Hermits
Upon a lonely mountain, there lived two hermits who
worshipped God and loved one another. Now these two hermits had one earthen
bowl, and this was their only possession. One day an evil spirit entered into
the heart of the older hermit and he came to the younger and said, "It is
long that we have lived together. The time has come for us to part. Let us
divide our possessions." Then the younger hermit was saddened and he said,
"It grieves me, Brother, that thou shouldst leave me. But if thou must
needs go, so be it," and he brought the earthen bowl and gave it to him saying,
"We cannot divide it, Brother, let it be thine." Then the older
hermit said, "Charity I will not accept. I will take nothing but mine own.
It must be divided." And the younger one said, "If the bowl be
broken, of what use would it be to thee or to me? If it be thy pleasure let us
rather cast a lot." But the older hermit said again, "I will have but
justice and mine own, and I will not trust justice and mine own to vain chance.
The bowl must be divided." Then the younger hermit could reason no further
and he said, "If it be indeed thy will, and if even so thou wouldst have
it let us now break the bowl." But the face of the older hermit grew
exceedingly dark, and he cried, "O thou cursed coward, thou wouldst not
fight."
On Giving and Taking
Once there lived a man who had a valley-full of needles. And
one day the mother of Jesus came to him and said: "Friend, my son's garment
is torn and I must needs mend it before he goeth to the temple. Wouldst thou not
give me a needle?" And he gave her not a needle, but he gave her a learned
discourse on Giving and Taking to carry to her son before he should go to the
temple.
The Seven Selves
In the stillest hour of the night, as I lay half asleep, my
seven selves sat together and thus conversed in whisper: First Self: Here, in this madman, I have dwelt all these
years, with naught to do but renew his pain by day and recreate his sorrow by
night. I can bear my fate no longer, and now I rebel.
Second Self: Yours is a better lot than mine, brother, for
it is given to me to be this madman's joyous self. I laugh his laughter and
sing his happy hours, and with thrice winged feet I dance his brighter
thoughts. It is I that would rebel against my weary existence.
Third Self: And what of me, the love-ridden self, the
flaming brand of wild passion and fantastic desires? It is I the love-sick self
who would rebel against this madman.
Fourth Self: I, amongst you all, am the most miserable, for
naught was given me but odious hatred and destructive loathing. It is I, the
tempest-like self, the one born in the black caves of Hell, who would protest
against serving this madman.
Fifth Self: Nay, it is I, the thinking self, the fanciful
self, the self of hunger and thirst, the one doomed to wander without rest in
search of unknown things and things not yet created; it is I, not you, who
would rebel.
Sixth Self: And I, the working self, the pitiful labourer,
who, with patient hands, and longing eyes, fashion the days into images and
give the formless elements new and eternal forms it is I, the solitary one, who
would rebel against this restless madman.
Seventh Self: How strange that you all would rebel against
this man, because each and every one of you has a preordained fate to fulfill.
Ah! could I but be like one of you, a self with a determined lot! But I have
none, I am the do-nothing self, the one who sits in the dumb, empty nowhere and
nowhen, while you are busy re-creating life. Is it you or I, neighbours, who
should rebel?
When the seventh self thus spake the other six selves looked
with pity upon him but said nothing more; and as the night grew deeper one
after the other went to sleep enfolded with a new and happy submission.
But the seventh self remained watching and gazing at nothingness,
which is behind all things.
War
One night a feat was held in the palace, and there came a
man and prostrated himself before the prince, and all the feasters looked upon
him; and they saw that one of his eyes was out and that the empty socket bled.
And the prince inquired of him, "What has befallen you?" And the man
replied, "O prince, I am by profession a thief, and this night, because there
was no moon, I went to rob the money changer's shop, and as I climbed in
through the window I made a mistake and entered the weaver's shop, and in the
dark I ran into the weaver's loom and my eye was plucked out. And now, O
prince, I ask for justice upon the weaver." Then the prince sent for the
weaver and he came, and it was decreed that one of his eyes should be plucked
out.
"O prince," said the weaver, "the decree is
just. It is right that one of my eyes be taken. And yet, alas! both are
necessary to me in order that I may see the two sides of the cloth that I
weave. But I have a neighbour, a cobbler, who has also two eyes, and in his
trade both eyes are not necessary." Then the prince sent for the cobbler.
And he came. And they took out one of the cobbler's two eyes. And justice was
satisfied.
The Fox
A fox looked at his shadow at sunrise and said, "I will
have a camel for lunch today." And all morning he went about looking for
camels. But at noon he saw his shadow again and he said, "A mouse will
do." The Wise King Once there ruled in the distant city of Wirani a king
who was both mighty and wise. And he was feared for his might and loved for his
wisdom.
Now, in the heart of that city was a well, whose water was
cool and crystalline, from which all the inhabitants drank, even the king and
his courtiers; for there was no other well. One night when all were asleep, a
witch entered the city, and poured seven drops of strange liquid into the well,
and said, "From this hour he who drinks this water shall become mad."
Next morning all the inhabitants, save the king and his lord
chamberlain, drank from the well and became mad, even as the witch had
foretold. And during that day the people in the narrow streets and in the market
places did naught but whisper to one another, "The king is mad. Our king
and his lord chamberlain have lost their reason.
Surely we cannot be ruled by a mad king. We must dethrone
him." That evening the king ordered a golden goblet to be filled from the well.
And when it was brought to him he drank deeply, and gave it to his lord
chamberlain to drink. And there was great rejoicing in that distant city of
Wirani, because its king and its lord chamberlain had regained their reason.
Ambition
Three men met at a tavern table. One was a weaver, another a
carpenter and the third a ploughman. Said the weaver, "I sold a fine linen
shroud today for two pieces of gold. Let us have all the wine we want."
"And I," said the carpenter, "I sold my best
coffin. We will have a great roast with the wine."
"I only dug a grave," said the ploughman,
"but my patron paid me double. Let us have honey cakes too."
And all that evening the tavern was busy, for they called
often for wine and meat and cakes. And they were merry. And the host rubbed his
hands and smiled at his wife; for his guestswere spending freely. When they
left the moon was high, and they walked along the roadsinging and shouting
together.
The host and his wife stood in the tavern door and looked
after them.
"Ah!" said the wife, "these gentlemen! So
freehanded and so gay!
If only they could bring us such luck every day! Then our son
need not be a tavern-keeper and work so hard. We could educate him, and he
could become a priest."
The New Pleasure
Last night I invented a new pleasure, and as I was giving it
the first trial an angel and a devil came rushing toward my house. They met at
my door and fought with each other over my newly created
pleasure; the one crying, "It is a sin!" the
other, "It is a virtue!"
The Other Language
Three days after I was born, as I lay in my silken cradle,
gazing with astonished dismay on the new world round about me, my mother spoke
to the wet-nurse, saying, "How does my child?"
And the wet-nurse answered, "He does well, Madame, I
have fed him three times; and never before have I seen a babe so young yet so gay."
And I was indignant; and I cried, "It is not true, mother; for my bed is
hard, and the milk I have sucked is bitter to my mouth, and the odour of the
breast is foul in my nostrils, and I am most miserable."
But my mother did not understand, nor did the nurse; for the
language I spoke was that of the world from which I came. And on the
twenty-first day of my life, as I was being christened, the priest said to my
mother, "You should indeed by happy, Madame, that your son was born a
Christian."
And I was surprised, and I said to the priest, "Then
your mother in Heaven should be unhappy, for you were not born a
Christian."
But the priest too did not understand my language. And after
seven moons, one day a soothsayer looked at me, and he said to my mother,
"Your son will be a statesman and a great leaderof men."
But I cried out, "That is a false prophet; for I shall
be a musician, and naught but a musician shall I be."
But even at that age my language was not understood--and
great was my astonishment. And after three and thirty years, during which my
mother, and the nurse, and the priest have all died, (the shadow of God be upon
their spirits) the soothsayer still lives. And yesterday I met him near the
gates of the temple; and while we were talking together he said, "I have
always known you would become a great musician. Even in your infancy I prophesied
and foretold your future." And I believed him--for now I too have
forgotten the language of that other world.
The Pomegranate
Once when I was living in the heart of a pomegranate, I
heard a seed saying, "Someday I shall become a tree, and the wind will
sing in my branches, and the sun will dance on my leaves, and I shall be strong
and beautiful through all the seasons."
Then another seed spoke and said, "When I was as young
as you, I too held such views; but now that I can weigh and measure things, I
see that my hopes were vain."
And a third seed spoke also, "I see in us nothing that
promises so great a future."
And a fourth said, "But what a mockery our life would
be, without a greater future!"
Said a fifth, "Why dispute what we shall be, when we
know not even what we are."
But a sixth replied, "Whatever we are, that we shall
continue to be."
And a seventh said, "I have such a clear idea how
everything will be, but I cannot put it into words."
Then an eight spoke and a ninth and a tenth and then many until
all were speaking, and I could distinguish nothing for the many voices.
And so I moved that very day into the heart of a quince,
where theseeds are few and almost silent.
The Two CagesIn my father's garden there are two cages. In
one is a lion, which my father's slaves brought from the desert of Ninavah; in
the other is a songless sparrow.
Every day at dawn the sparrow calls to the lion, "Good
morrow to thee, brother prisoner."
The Three Ants
Three ants met on the nose of a man who was asleep in the
sun. And after they had saluted one another, each according to the custom of
his tribe, they stood there conversing.
The first ant said, "These hills and plains are the
most barren I have known. I have searched all day for a grain of some sort, and
there is none to be found."
Said the second ant, "I too have found nothing, though
I have visited every nook and glade. This is, I believe, what my people call
the soft, moving land where nothing grows."
Then the third ant raised his head and said, "My
friends, we are standing now on the nose of the Supreme Ant, the mighty and
infinite Ant, whose body is so great that we cannot see it, whose shadow is so
vast that we cannot trace it, whose voice is so loud that we cannot hear it;
and He is omnipresent."
When the third ant spoke thus the other ants looked at each
other and laughed.
At that moment the man moved and in his sleep raised his
hand and scratched his nose, and the three ants were crushed.
The Grave-Digger
Once, as I was burying one of my dead selves, the
grave-digger came by and said to me, "Of all those who come here to bury,
you alone I like."
Said I, "You please me exceedingly, but why do you like
me?"
"Because," said he, "They come weeping and go
weeping you only come laughing and go laughing."
On the Steps of the Temple
Yestereve, on the marble steps of the Temple, I saw a woman
sittingbetween two men. One side of her face was pale, the other was blushing.
The Blessed City
In my youth I was told that in a certain city every one
lived according to the Scriptures.
And I said, "I will seek that city and the blessedness
thereof."
And it was far. And I made great provision for my journey.
And after forty days I beheld the city and on the forty-first day I entered
into it.
And lo! the whole company of the inhabitants had each but a
single eye and but one hand. And I was astonished and said to myself, "Shall
they of this so holy city have but one eye and one hand?" then I saw that
they too were astonished, for they were marveling greatly at my two hands and
my two eyes. And as they were speaking together I inquired of them saying,
"Is this indeed the Blessed City, where each man lives according to the
Scriptures?" And they said, "Yes, this is that city."
"And what," said I, "hath befallen you, and
where are your right eyes and your right hands?"
And all the people were moved. And they said, "Come
thou and see."
And they took me to the temple in the midst of the city. and
in the temple I saw a heap of hands and eyes. All withered. Then said I,
"Alas! what conqueror hath committed this cruelty upon you?"
And there went a murmur amongst them. And one of their elders
stood forth and said, "This doing is of ourselves. God hath made us
conquerors over the evil that was in us."
And he led me to a high altar, and all the people followed.
And he showed me above the altar an inscription graven, and I read: "If
thy right eye offend thee, pluck it out and cast it from thee; for it is
profitable for thee that one of thy members should perish, and not that the
whole body should be cast into hell. And if thy right hand offend thee, cut it
off and cast it from thee; for it is profitable for thee that one of thy
members should perish, and not that thy whole body should be cast into
hell."
Then I understood. And I turned about to all the people and
cried, "Hath no man or woman among you two eyes or two hands?"
And they answered me saying, "No, not one. There is
none whole savesuch as are yet too young to read the Scripture and to
understand its commandment."
And when we had come out of the temple, I straightway left
that Blessed City; for I was not too young, and I could read the scripture.
The Good God and the Evil God
The Good God and the Evil God met on the mountain top. The
Good God said, "Good day to you, brother."
The Evil God did not answer.
And the Good God said, "You are in a bad humour
today."
"Yes," said the Evil God, "for of late I have
been often mistaken for you, called by your name, and treated as if I were you,
and it ill-pleases me."
And the Good God said, "But I too have been mistaken
for you and called by your name."
The Evil God walked away curing the stupidity of man.
Defeat
Defeat, my Defeat, my solitude and my aloofness; You are
dearer to me than a thousand triumphs, And sweeter to my heart than all
world-glory. Defeat, my Defeat, my self-knowledge and my defiance, Through you
I know that I am yet young and swift of footAnd not to be trapped by withering
laurels. And in you I have found aloneness
And the joy of being shunned and scorned. Defeat, my Defeat,
my shining sword and shield, In your eyes I have read That to be enthroned is
to be enslaved, and to be understood is to be leveled down, And to be grasped
is but to reach one's fullness and like a ripe fruit to fall and be consumed.
Defeat, my Defeat, my bold companion, You shall hear my
songs and my cries an my silences, And none but you shall speak to me of the
beating of wings, And urging of seas, And of mountains that burn in the night, And
you alone shall climb my steep and rocky soul.Defeat, my Defeat, my deathless
courage, You and I shall laugh together with the storm, And together we shall
dig graves for all that die in us, And we shall stand in the sun with a will, And
we shall be dangerous.
Night and the Madman
"I am like thee, O, Night, dark and naked; I walk on
the flaming path which is above my day-dreams, and whenever my foot touches earth
a giant oak tree comes forth."
"Nay, thou art not like me, O, Madman, for thou still
lookest backward to see how large a foot-print thou leavest on the sand."
"I am like thee, O, Night, silent and deep; and in the
heart of my loneliness lies a Goddess in child-bed; and in him who is being born
Heaven touches Hell."
"Nay, thou art not like me, O, Madman, for thou
shudderest yet before pain, and the song of the abyss terrifies thee."
"I am like thee, O, Night, wild and terrible; for my
ears are crowded with cries of conquered nations and sighs for forgotten
lands."
"Nay, thou art not like me, O, Madman, for thou still
takest thy little-self for a comrade, and with thy monster-self thou canst not
be friend."
"I am like thee, O, Night, cruel and awful; for my
bosom is lit by burning ships at sea, and my lips are wet with blood of slain warriors."
"Nay, thou art not like me, O, Madman; for the desire
for a sister-spirit is yet upon thee, and thou has not become a low unto thyself."
"I am like thee, O, Night, joyous and glad; for he who
dwells in my shadow is now drunk with virgin wine, and she who follows me is sinning
mirthfully."
"Nay, thou art not like me, O, Madman, for thy soul is
wrapped in the veil of seven folds and thou holdest not they heart in thine hand."
"I am like thee, O, Night, patient and passionate; for
in my breast a thousand dead lovers are buried in shrouds of withered
kisses."
"Yea, Madman, art thou like me? Art thou like me? And
canst thou ride the tempest as a steed, and grasp the lightning as a
sword?"
"Like thee, O, Night, like thee, mighty and high, and
my throne isbuilt upon heaps of fallen Gods; and before me too pass the days to
kiss the hem of my garment but never to gaze at my face."
"Art thou like me, child of my darkest heart? And dost
thou think my untamed thoughts and speak my vast language?"
"Yea, we are twin brothers, O, Night; for thou
revealest space and I reveal my soul."
Faces
I have seen a face with a thousand countenances, and a face
that was but a single countenance as if held in a mould. I have seen a face
whose sheen I could look through to the ugliness beneath, and a face whose
sheen I had to lift to see how beautiful it was. I have seen an old face much
lined with nothing, and a smooth face in which all things were graven. I know
faces, because I look through the fabric my own eye weaves, and behold the
reality beneath.
The Greater Sea
My soul and I went to the great sea to bathe. And when we
reached the shore, we went about looking for a hidden and lonely place. But as
we walked, we saw a man sitting on a grey rock taking pinches of salt from a
bag and throwing them into the sea. "This is the pessimist," said my soul,
"Let us leave this place.We cannot bathe here."
We walked on until we reached an inlet. There we saw,
standing on a white rock, a man holding a bejeweled box, from which he took sugar
and threw it into the sea.
"And this is the optimist," said my soul,
"And he too must not see our naked bodies. Further on we walked. And on a
beach we saw a man picking up dead fish and tenderly putting them back into the
water.
"And we cannot bathe before him," said my soul.
"He is the humane philanthropist."And we passed on. Then we came
where we saw a man tracing his shadow on the sand. Great waves came and erased
it. But he went on tracing it againand again.
"He is the mystic," said my soul, "Let us leave
him."
And we walked on, till in a quiet cover we saw a man
scooping up the foam and putting it into an alabaster bowl.
"He is the idealist," said my soul, "Surely
he must not see our nudity."
And on we walked. Suddenly we heard a voice crying,
"This is the sea. This is the deep sea. This is the vast and mighty
sea."
And when we reached the voice it was a man whose back was
turned to the sea, and at his ear he held a shell, listening to its murmur. And
my soul said, "Let us pass on. He is the realist, who turns
his back on the whole he cannot grasp, and busies himself
with a fragment."
So we passed on. And in a weedy place among the rocks was a
man with his head buried in the sand. And I said to my soul, "We can bath
here, for he cannot see us."
"Nay," said my soul, "For he is the most
deadly of them all. He is the puritan."
Then a great sadness came over the face of my soul, and into
her voice.
"Let us go hence," she said, "For there is no
lonely, hidden place where we can bathe. I would not have this wind lift my
golden hair, or bare my white bosom in this air, or let the light disclose my
sacred nakedness." Then we left that sea to seek the Greater Sea.
Crucified
I cried to men, "I would be crucified!" And they
said, "Why should your blood be upon our heads?" And I answered,
"How else shall you be exalted except by crucifying madmen?" And they
heeded and I was crucified. And the crucifixion appeased me.And when I was
hanged between earth and heaven they lifted up their heads to see me. And they
were exalted, for their heads had never before been lifted. But as they stood
looking up at me one called out, "For what art thou seeking to
atone?" And another cried, "In
what cause dost thou sacrifice thyself?" And a third said, "Thinkest
thou with this price to buy world glory?" Then said a fourth,
"Behold, how he smiles! Can such pain be forgiven?"
And I answered them all, and said:
"Remember only that I smiled. I do not atone nor
sacrifice nor wish for glory; and I have nothing to forgive. I thirsted and I besought
you to give me my blood to drink. For what is there can quench a madman's
thirst but his own blood? I was dumb and I asked wounds of you for mouths. I
was imprisoned in your days and night and I sought a door into larger days and
nights.
And now I go as others already crucified have gone. And
think not we are weary of crucifixion. For we must be crucified by larger and
yet larger men, between greater earths and greater heavens."
The Astronomer
In the shadow of the temple my friend and I saw a blind man
sitting alone. And my friend said, "Behold the wisest man of our
land." Then I left my friend and approached the blind man and greeted him.
And we conversed.
After a while I said, "Forgive my question; but since
when has thou been blind?"
"From my birth," he answered.
Said I, "And what path of wisdom followest thou?"
Said he, "I am an astronomer."
Then he placed his hand upon his breast saying, "I
watch all these suns and moons and stars."
The Great Longing
Here I sit between my brother the mountain and my sister the
sea.We three are one in loneliness, and the love that binds us together is deep
and strong and strange. Nay, it is deeper than my sister's depth and stronger
than my brother's strength, and stranger than the strangeness of my madness.
Aeons upon aeons have passed since the first grey dawn made
us visible to one another; and though we have seen the birth and the fullness
and the death of many worlds, we are still eager and young. We are young and
eager and yet we are mateless and unvisited, and though we lie in unbroken half
embrace, we are uncomforted. And what comfort is there for controlled desire
and unspent passion? Whence shall come the flaming god to warm my sister's bed?
And what she torrent shall quench my brother's fire? And who is the woman that
shall command my heart?
In the stillness of the night my sister murmurs in her sleep
the fire-god's unknown name, and my brother calls afar upon the cool and
distant goddess. But upon whom I call in my sleep I know not.
* * * * * * * * *
Here I sit between my brother the mountain and my sister the
sea. We three are one in loneliness, and the love that binds us together is
deep and strong and strange.
Said a Blade of Grass
Said a blade of grass to an autumn leaf, "You make such
a noise falling! You scatter all my winter dreams."
Said the leaf indignant, "Low-born and low-dwelling!
Songless, peevish thing! You live not in the upper air and you cannot tell the
sound of singing."
Then the autumn leaf lay down upon the earth and slept. And
when spring came she waked again--and she was a blade of grass. And when it was
autumn and her winter sleep was upon her, and above her through all the air the
leaves were falling, she muttered to herself, "O these autumn leaves! They
make such noise! They scatter all my winter dreams."
The Eye
Said the Eye one day, "I see beyond these valleys a
mountain veiled with blue mist. Is it not beautiful?"
The Ear listened, and after listening intently awhile, said,
"But where is any mountain? I do not hear it."Then the Hand spoke and
said, "I am trying in vain to feel it or touch it, and I can find no
mountain."
And the Nose said, "There is no mountain, I cannot
smell it."
Then the Eye turned the other way, and they all began to
talk together about the Eye's strange delusion. And they said, "Something
must be the matter with the Eye."
The Two Learned Men
Once there lived in the ancient city of Afkar two learned
men who hated and belittled each other's learning. For one of them denied the
existence of the gods and the other was a believer.
One day the two met in the marketplace, and amidst their
followers they began to dispute and to argue about the existence or the non-existence
of the gods. And after hours of contention they parted. That evening the
unbeliever went to the temple and prostrated himself before the altar and
prayed the gods to forgive his wayward past. And the same hour the other
learned man, he who had upheld the gods, burned his sacred books. For he had
become an unbeliever.
When My Sorrow Was Born
When my Sorrow was born I nursed it with care, and watched
over it with loving tenderness. And my Sorrow grew like all living things,
strong and beautiful and full of wondrous delights. And we loved one another,
my Sorrow and I, and we loved the world about us; for Sorrow had a kindly heart and mine was
kindly with Sorrow. And when we conversed, my Sorrow and I, our days were
winged and our nights were girdled with dreams; for Sorrow had an eloquent tongue, and mine
was eloquent with Sorrow. And when we sang together, my Sorrow and I, our
neighbors sat at their windows and listened; for our songs were deep as the sea and our
melodies were full of strange memories. And when we walked together, my Sorrow
and I, people gazed at us with gentle eyes and whispered in words of exceeding
sweetness. And there were those who looked with envy upon us, for Sorrow was a
noble thing and I was proud with Sorrow.But my Sorrow died, like all living
things, and alone I am left to muse and ponder.
And now when I speak my words fall heavily upon my ears. And
when I sing my songs my neighbours come not to listen. And when I walk the
streets no one looks at me. Only in my sleep I hear voices saying in pity,
"See, there lies the man whose Sorrow is dead."
And When my Joy was Born
And when my Joy was born, I held it in my arms and stood on
the house-top shouting,
"Come ye, my neighbours, come and see, for Joy this day
is born unto me. Come and behold this gladsome thing that laugheth in the
sun."
But none of my neighbours came to look upon my Joy, and
great was my astonishment. And every day for seven moons I proclaimed my Joy
from the house top and yet no one heeded me. And my Joy and I were alone, unsought
and unvisited. Then my Joy grew pale and weary because no other heart but mine held
its loveliness and no other lips kissed its lips. Then my Joy died of
isolation. And now I only remember my dead Joy in remembering my dead Sorrow. But
memory is an autumn leaf that murmurs a while in the wind and then is heard no
more.
"The Perfect World"
God of lost souls, thou who are lost amongst the gods, hear
me: Gentle Destiny that watchest over us, mad, wandering spirits, hear me:
I dwell in the midst of a perfect race, I the most
imperfect. I, a human chaos, a nebula of confused elements, I move amongst finished
worlds--peoples of complete laws and pure order, whose thoughts are assorted,
whose dreams are arranged, and whose visions are enrolled and registered. Their
virtues, O God, are measured, their sins are weighed, and even the countless
things that pass in the dim twilight of neithersin nor virtue are recorded and
catalogued. Here days and night are divided into seasons of conduct and
governed by rules of blameless accuracy. To eat, to drink, to sleep, to cover
one's nudity, and then to be weary in due time. To work, to play, to sing, to
dance, and then to lie still when the clock strikes the hour. To think thus, to
feel thus much, and then to cease thinking and feeling when a certain star
rises above yonder horizon. To rob a neighbour with a smile, to bestow gifts
with a graceful wave of the hand, to praise prudently, to blame cautiously, to destroy
a sound with a word, to burn a body with a breath, and then to wash the hands
when the day's work is done. To love according to an established order, to
entertain one's best self in a preconceived manner, to worship the gods
becomingly, to intrigue the devils artfully and then to forget all as though memory
were dead. To fancy with a motive, to contemplate with consideration, to be happy
sweetly, to suffer nobly and then to empty the cup so that tomorrow may fill it
again.
All these things, O God, are conceived with
forethought, born with determination, nursed with exactness, governed by rules,
directed by reason, and then slain and buried after a prescribed method. And
even their silent graves that lie within the human soul are marked and
numbered. It is a perfect world, a world of consummate excellence, a world of supreme
wonders, the ripest fruit in God's garden, the master-thought of the universe. But
why should I be here, O God, I a green seed of unfulfilled passion, a mad
tempest that seeketh neither east nor west, a be wildered fragment from a burnt
planet? Why am I here, O God of lost souls, thou who art lost amongst the gods?
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